Tuesday, December 13, 2011
WHEN I GET HOME FROM WORK
Monday, September 5, 2011
THE MENAGERIE
I could hear, or at least I imagined I could hear, you
being made up by the hair and make up stylist.
I was down stairs in our New Orleans honeymoon suite
gathering final sins, secrets, paper work, and holding your ring
in my fingers, feeling the smooth, flawless contours
of a life’s worth of montages and coffins; conflicts
and a rotating carousel of hybrid animals that would
have made Jung proud. Condensation he called it.
Look at that horse’s head with that elephant’s body.
Now what in the hell is it going to do with that musculature?
How will it take a shit or find someone to love it?
And that dragon slash lion slash crow.
That’s a real mess. And people believe in God.
I love that punch line. Well you have to have faith, ya know.
And what child is going to want to sit
On that Tyrannosaurus with the chimpanzee arms
and goat’s legs? That’s just down right scary.
But hey, that’s New Orleans for ya and that’s where we decided
to do it. And it was grandeur incarnate
from the white candles in glass cylinders
from the older, yet pretty female justice of the peace
or whatever the fuck she’s called. From the chairs wrapped
in white linen and those brown bows you loved
from the wedding the day before. I negotiated with the mother
of that bride, because I knew those chair tie backs would make you happy;
that Mise-en-scène set the stage as if Fellini himself were in town.
You adored the way I strong armed the coordinator, muscled the musicians,
bartered with the bartender, charmed the florist, and discounted
the rooms for your gentle mother and your gruff, caring father.
I waited at the end of it all – the suited and dressed guests
the setting orange sun, the aroma of Café Du Mond in the air,
the insane, drooling, hydra slithering and lurking under seats.
Who invited him and what side of the family is he on?
All of the animals where there, myself included
and when I saw you make the turn, seeing you for the first time –
your painted face, gorgeous, enigmatic, beautiful.
Your body wrapped tightly in the fabrics of all of your hopes,
tears forming from your lids and then dripping to the white
plastic runway. I was in love.
Your father placed you in my arm. He trusted me to make you laugh,
to protect you, to keep those creatures at bay by tossing
chunks of bloody meat out the front door – continuously.
To keep them eating, gnawing, scraping at bones.
That was my job but I was terrible at it
and eventually they smelled us.
Clawed their way into our lives
Found us sleeping in bed
Silent as candlelight
More than happy to swallow us whole.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
TRAFFIC
Friday, May 6, 2011
MODELS
The hours I’ve worked have fallen in love
With someone else’s time.
I drive on the charcoal and mustard colored turnpike
Thinking about the way tender veins
Sleep under the skin of your hands
And the way your nails are soft fresh petals.
I can’t remember the last time
I walked the autumn streets of childhood.
Spending so much time in windowless rooms
Washes away the memories of fresh air.
When I was a child, I used to build plastic models:
Harrier jets, Apache helicopters, the Intrepid aircraft carrier.
I spent days gently twisting the parts from frames
Gluing them together, adhering decals, painting edges.
The clear cement would stick my fingers together
No longer allowing me to snap them at good ideas.
Or I’d accidently break off an important piece
Only to squeeze out more fresh glue
Onto miniature fragments from life
Press them all too hard
Until they snapped off again.
A tiny plane on the deck, a rudder underneath, a propeller.
Twist, glue, press, dry, snap. Repeat. Over and over.
Until I pushed so hard I cracked a hole in the hull.
I’m an adult now and nothing has changed.
Pushing, snapping, breaking, getting stuck together.
If I could simply dance with your soft skeleton
One more time, perhaps I won’t crush it all into a pile of dust.
Or, maybe I should just meet up with St. Christopher
Order us a pair of Bourbons – neat
Stare up into the snaking hips of a stripper
And talk about all the things we’ve lost.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
PORTRAIT
It begins with your eyes.
They are the powder that protects
Butterfly wings.
There are shapes in the known world
Recognizable to most men
Until your eyes come into the picture.
Suddenly the shapes of once baffling elements
Can’t even compare.
Blades of grass have nothing on them.
The diamond shapes of the most elegant fish
Who do not fear hooks or bait
As they glide in and out of currents
They swim freely in fresh water –
But even they are quietly jealous
Of the soft lids that caress your bronze eyes.
Your lips are in love with each other.
How could they not be?
They are fortunately pressed against one another.
Even seraphim stare in amazement
Wondering how two gentle acts of nature
Continue to blow an autumn breeze
Straight through my heart.
The serene edge of a lake
Kissing the particles of sand and tiny stones
That make people have faith
And life evolve into happiness.
Those are your lips.
They have earned the right to kiss each other
And only a pure, blue soul might have the chance
To meet with them.
Then there is the sheen of your black hair.
Renaissance painters have mixed
The blood of countless animals
Of crushed fruits and inventions
Blended into smooth, luscious dyes
Painted and smeared onto fresco walls
And still, they crush the horse hairs
Of their feeble brushes
Knowing they will never articulate
The color of it all.
Men have no idea why
They are crushed under
The fragrant air that floats from your mouth
Straight from your lungs.
The sweetness of honeysuckle
Of childhood playgrounds
And swings sets that cradle children
The way your tender arms
Hold with the comfort of the pieta.
Those men haven’t even been creative enough
To come up with a name
That describes how beautiful you are.
Still, they continue to paint.