I've sat down at a table
In a small Thai restaurant
Just off of Van Nuys.
Diana Summer is playing
Over the speaker system
Frosty air pours from a dusty vent.
I've ordered the Tom Kai Koong
And crab fried rice –
In a small Thai restaurant
Just off of Van Nuys.
Diana Summer is playing
Over the speaker system
Frosty air pours from a dusty vent.
I've ordered the Tom Kai Koong
And crab fried rice –
My face glazed with demure sadness.
We used to eat Thai food together
Your straight, sheer black hair
Leading down to the small bowls
Where your neck meets your collarbone.
In the shower together, water collected
As I gently circled a bar of mint colored soap
Over the pantheon of colored tattoos
Inked on your back in your younger,
We used to eat Thai food together
Your straight, sheer black hair
Leading down to the small bowls
Where your neck meets your collarbone.
In the shower together, water collected
As I gently circled a bar of mint colored soap
Over the pantheon of colored tattoos
Inked on your back in your younger,
Dumber, Teenage years.
In this restaurant now
In what I guess isLos Angeles
Or part oflos Angeles
Or nearLos Angeles
The chairs are all wrapped in
In this restaurant now
In what I guess is
Or part of
Or near
The chairs are all wrapped in
Coarse burgundy material with white grape leaves.
The waitress has brought my soup
And I think about how you’d never eat it.
It's made with chicken stock.
I swirl my spoon through the milky liquid.
The waitress has brought my soup
And I think about how you’d never eat it.
It's made with chicken stock.
I swirl my spoon through the milky liquid.
A mushroom surfaces and sinks.
A Shrimp bobs and drifts to the side of the bowl –
It all clings before being spooned,
Dumped into my mouth,
And devoured.
This is how I imagine it:
You still sprawl under sheets.
You still flat iron and comb your hair.
You still sprawl under sheets.
You still flat iron and comb your hair.
You shower with someone new.
This is the truth about me:
After being honked at for being
In the middle lane trying to turn left
I slam on the gas
Chase down a mini van
This is the truth about me:
After being honked at for being
In the middle lane trying to turn left
I slam on the gas
Chase down a mini van
Catch it at a red light.
I scream into the open window,
"Why the fuck would you honk
at someone trying to make a left turn?"
I scream into the open window,
"Why the fuck would you honk
at someone trying to make a left turn?"
The Hispanic woman driver ignores me.
She pulls up.
She pulls up.
I drive around to her other side
I yell,
"Not so noisy now, huh?”
Nothing. I honk. Nothing. I drive on.
I couldn't get through to her.
And I couldn't get through to you.
I yell,
"Not so noisy now, huh?”
Nothing. I honk. Nothing. I drive on.
I couldn't get through to her.
And I couldn't get through to you.
I take my last gulp, swallow hard.
The bowl is empty except for a few
red dots among the white remnants
of coconut milk.
Most of it is gone.
I'm not about to lick the surface clean.
There isn't any more room
in my temperamental gut.
Yet, there's another course left to eat
And I find it really hard to move on.